I feel like a stranger in this blog.
I’ve been on a long hiatus from blogging or even sharing anything on the internet. And I know that I always swear in this tiny little space of mine in the crazy worId wide web that I’ll keep on writing and creating contents and then after that I’ll disappear again. The thing is, lately I’ve been dividing myself into responsibilities and doing other stuff that I enjoy which makes living in this world more bearable. Don’t get me wrong, I love this blog and I never thought of deleting or abandoning it. But sometimes it’s either I’m scared of ranting too much or I’m just really busy. The past few months I’ve been pushing myself to get back into somehow being creative again by researching about painting techniques, reading obscure stories from the past (oh my love and curiosity for the long lost times) and reading books (currently reading Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman), and voila! I was able to change the layout of my blog after few nights of weekends and also I was able get back into editing videos again and had the guts to create a Youtube channel. 2019 had started really good and I wish it’ll end on a good note as well.
Below are the super random and messy but interesting things that’s been going on in my mind or in my life lately;
- Being impulsive on changing my hair and unplanned visit to the salon more often.
- I’ve been having more telltale conversations with people and wanting to jot them down just in case I’ll write a fiction book at least I have some reference. (*wink)
- Realizing how much I don’t like unsolicited advice especially from people who barely knows anything. I mean if I told you the whole story and ask for your opinion I do appreciate whatever it is that you’re going to say even if it doesn’t align with the views that I have as it can enable me to see the other side of things and we will both learn. But if you’re just going to blurt out something without even knowing and thinking, then no thanks!
- Being more happy and comfortable with spending time alone. I don’t know if that’s supposed to be good or no. But I’ve been utterly untroubled with my own company like going into the cinema alone, taking myself on a dinner or a long walk somewhere and travelling to a foreign country for almost 1 week. I felt like I’ve learned to love and take care of myself. Being with someone surely felt nice but sometimes you have to be ecstatic by just having yourself. Also, I’ve been getting so much rapped about this but people should understand that being alone isn’t connected to loneliness and that there’s always joy in solitude.
- Been giving more smile than I should.
- Being more appreciative to my family and few friends that I have.
- Knowing better about being diagnosed with PCOS. I’ve learned how having this is so complex and difficult but I’m looking forward of managing it by having few visits at the Ob-Gyne and doing my own research. Honestly, this has been quiet challenging for me as the symptoms that I have become worst and obvious.
I missed spilling the tea and all. Till my next blog post!
“I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself.”
― Warsan Shire
How about you? How’s everything with you lately? I hope that everything’s been great.
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