It has been almost one year since I’ve written a hearty post spilling the beans in my life. I have to be honest as well that I haven’t been writing anything that much lately. I feel really giddy while seating and typing this on my laptop as there’s really lots of stories and thoughts that’s going on in my mind.
“Taking Chances” is the quintessential term to recapitulate everything.
Months ago I got to the point of extreme mental and emotional stress that it had affected my physical health in a way that I never expected. I had stomach pain, vomiting like crazy and over fatigue almost everyday. I don’t know if I should blame myself for not being able to handle the stress properly or the strain is just really too much. I’ve experienced being stressed out before but that was the first time that it really hit me so hard. During that time I’ve been thinking if the thing that has been causing my extreme tension was worth it and I came to the fact or conclusion that it doesn’t deserve my time and effort at all. Thanks to my family and friends whose views and opinions succored me to realize that it’s totally fine to wave goodbye in an environment that can’t help you grow as person. I did learn something during my stay in that kind of place though and the situation has put my patience into a test. So I quit it and take my chances, if there’s any. I have made options for myself and I’m somehow proud that I was able to handle the situation in a more positive way. No panicking, no restless night and no ugly crying (or maybe just a little). I’ve let things fall into its proper places. Unfortunately whenever we mentioned the word “quitting” most of the people acquainted it with the word “weak”. I mean there are battles that worth fighting for but there are battles that you shouldn’t be staying in. And you’re the only person who have the power to perceive which is which. We have to learn how to weigh in which deserve our time and effort and which are not. I got some few comments though that I should stay there and continue but I value myself more and I understand that people have different views but the final decision will be always on me. I didn’t regret taking chances and I was happy with the decision that I’ve made.
While I’m in my early 20s I realized how many people I’ve had a sensible conversation with. It was a blithe knowing and feeling that I wasn’t alone with my thoughts after all. Late nights at the club with my friend was replaced by a late night talking about our life in the coffee shop. We can talk endlessly about it as this topic is too broad. We shared how we’ve change over the years and after graduating from university, how we slowly learn more about ourselves and how we’re in this big city taking chances and ogling for a roller coaster kind of life experience. I received a message from one of my seatmate in the university and it was heartwarming to know that I’ve touched his soul through my writing and we have a very meaningful discussion about present and future. It was inspiring changing rants with people.
I can pretty much say that I’m not yet where I really wanted to be but I’m in the process of going through it and I’m happy (not all the time of course, but that’s normal anyway) I do hope that my loved ones are proud and happy for me too (I’m assuming they are though). But cheering myself up is already enough for me. And I can’t express more how much I’m grateful to those people who supported me all the way. I wouldn’t have the courage to take chances without them.
“Some days are for falling in love with people, some days for cities, and some days your time in solitude.” – Akif Kichloo
Arabic is the origin of all languages in the world, " https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minan-ur-Rahman " and the word "Dunia" means life or world, which in the Arabic dictionary has many meanings all are around the same meaning which is "Minimum, low, Wreck, Sedition of the world, any affliction of the world, abysmal house, hardships and testing on patience" and more meanings rotating around the same low and hard meanings.
ReplyDeleteSo, what i am trying to deliver here is, you need to understand the concept of this life and never give up and always think about what to do in this shitty life which will benefit you later in the afterlife!
Life is so short and full of tests and situations which test our faith and patience, so whoever passes those tests is the winner, and the one who will trust in GOD and only GOD without any partners is the winner.
Patience, positive thinking, trust in GOD, trusting yourself and your capabilities, Reading, doing some sports and loving life with "limitations" are the keys to success, satisfaction, and good mode.
Try to have good friends only, and stay away from whom are spreading negative energy, coz friends and the best support in this life.
You are Mashallah very talented Artist, so never let your talent fade away. Buy your favorite water colors and draw the best of this life with your talented hands and find the time to do so even if you are so busy.
Bless you and All your family! wishing you a happy blessed life and wonderful coming birthday :)))).