Bits and pieces of what I’ve been doing lately.
Oh, there are no few words to explain what’s been currently happening in my life. Believe me, I’ve been sitting down with my journal and I couldn’t write anything down. I guess it’s because there’s too much and everything is a little overwhelming.
I’ve been on a one month vacation and I spent most of it curling in bed, watching movies, reading books, trying to sketch on my not so old Berkeley sketch pad, eating healthy foods as much as I can but failing to do so, and some weekend drive to the rural area. But the most important thing where I really put my focal on is perking up for the upcoming adventure. It has been pretty simple, happy, and a little busy. Anyway, the adventure that I am pertaining to is that I’ve decided to move in at Abu Dhabi (hello, from UAE!). I’m currently living here with my sister which I believe is a good practice for my independency. Ever since I graduated from college I promise myself that I would stop being dependent from my parents which didn’t happen although I already get a job in the Philippines. Then I realized that as long as I am living with my parents I wouldn’t learn how to be independent. Both my mother and father were too nice to the point that they laid out everything for us and I ended up doing nothing for myself. My mother kept on telling me that living away from home is a bit difficult and also asking me if I’m really going for it. I know this might sound cliché but sometimes we need to go through difficulties in order for us to learn plus it will be a good life story to share with anyone. I was actually a ball of emotion the night before my flight. I feel happy, excited, a little afraid and sad. Happy, because I will be seeing new places, get to bond with my sister and brother in law, and get to try new things. Excited, of course who wouldn’t be excited right? A little bit afraid, which I think is very normal to feel because I probably don’t know if my expectation would meet the reality of living in a foreign place. And sad, because I will surely miss my family and friends. I’ve been here for almost one week and yes I miss home. But I am letting positive emotions take over the negative thoughts. I am in this place for experience and I am not just pertaining about career but the broadness of life itself. I am striving for personal growth that can only be achieved by experiencing new and different things, meeting new people, and immersing with different culture and beliefs. A couple of friends and relatives told me that I am strong for making this huge decision. But I believe that what I really have is a free soul and spirit that leads me to strange places and states in life. I don’t have a specific compass I just have this fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom like Lana Del Rey in her Ride music video. As I am sitting in bed, blankets covering my shoulder while typing this on my laptop I can still hear the voice of my sister telling me “You choose your own battle!” then I whisper to myself “I have chosen this!”
“The only person who is going to give you security and the life you want is YOU.” - Emma Watson
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